Not Resilient

Why do I feel like a mess?
It makes me sad that I'm like the rest,
I hope I'm not just an electrical light,
Don't think you can always be right.

Meaningless and provoked,
The trail has been soaked,
My conscience is a loner,
Inside a pain donor.

I try to be brilliant, I try to be brilliant,
But I'm not a resilient, I'm not a resilient.

Oh for long I've been sealed,
This delusional mind will never be healed,
The sounds of broken eternity,
They echo in my own modernity.

I'm not a resilient, I'm not a resilient,
When I try to be brilliant, when I try to be brilliant.

Please, call me to your side,
I'll sustain your heart and abide.
You've got all my truth,
I run from myself, do I have to soothe?

No longer extinct,
My thoughts are always distinct,
I may not be someone's hater,
But I'll haunt you sometime later.

07-07-2012

Unheard

I found a road just ahead of me,

I've led the mystery to a mourning sea,

This is the pain you want me to take,

Can I go on without any mistake?

I know that you don't do it on purpose,

Maybe you don't realize, I suppose.

Each day that passes in accretion,

I can sense my undeniable depletion,

In every corner of my eternal frustration,

I always find my newest screaming creation.

I'm not a violent human being,

Instead of crying, I wish I was feeling,

All of my conscience has been broken,

I would kill my foreign mind to be spoken.

I know that you don't do it on purpose,

Maybe you don't realize, I suppose.

On the sidewalk, I would always slide,

I took my restless thoughts and I cried,

I try to be miserably creative with a word,

But my pleading voice is terribly unheard.

06-07-2012

Escuridão Sem Fim

Caminhos negros de emoção,
Que nos aumentam a atenção,
As minhas mãos escrevem,
Os teus olhos se perdem.

Mágoas alusivas à decadência,
És alimentada por indecência,
Porque não me fechas a mente
E me deixas permanecer inconsciente?

Peço desculpa por me sentir assim,
Mas não temes também um fim?
Peço desculpa por me sentir ruim.

Serão aqueles os gritos que ecoam na minha alma,
Que me obrigam a ser um recluso sem calma?
Atiram o meu corpo fora,
Enterram a minha sanidade em péssima hora.

Continua a puxar-me, continua a ser perfeita,
Magoa-me como te ensinei, sê eleita,
Sê tudo o que pretendes ser,
Continua a errar e deixa o meu dia escurecer.

Peço desculpa por ser ruim,
Peço desculpa por me sentir assim.

05-07-2012

Blue Thing with Green Ingredients

Through wondering seas
Magnifying leather pants
Instantly blurred mirrors
See a colorful bag of hands
Mind wanders inside a sealed universe
These sounds haven't written any verse
Trumpets and unrealistic birds
They shine peacefully, appear in words
Thousand tears by the nature
Footsteps in your garden, you weird creature

I am hearing voices from the outside
Are they drugs that I've never tried?
My child, you have never lied
To plants that always cried

Regained a seed from the wind
Acquired a stick from the woods
Wish I had some powerful goods
Those hands were too harsh to grind
A fairyland to never find
A human being never kind

And with a bittersweet state of mind
She had high levels of grace
Her body was the creation of a psychedelic race

03-07-2012

Insanity

The entire body is an extinction,
We all have the fear of illusion,
They carry on without any solution,
For too long, have we found any absolution?

Bloodless skins form a new tainted world,
Believe me when I'm afraid of the cold,
Let me treat you the way I've been told,
I need your body, so I can have something real to hold.

Insanity, you live by insanity, insanity

I have shed too many tears already,
The truth is, I've never been mentally steady,
Sometimes I feel the pain in my hands,
Run from a soul who is lost in heavy lands,
I wish you were here, you would feel me now,
Do not fear your well being, do not make a vow,
I'm a strange person, a really needy one,
But I do no harm, unless you give me a gun.

Insanity, you live by insanity, insanity

Free will is nowhere to be seen,
I have found someone really lovely,
She's incredibly haunting, where has she been?
Though my heart is so ugly,
My soul struggles the nights in vein,
These eyes are as dark as my room,
I feel an unconscious wealthy pain,
There's an empty space, maybe it is my gloom.

Insanity has been warned,
My brain has been called,
The levels of indescribable personality are too high,
I wish I have never felt my mind overly shy.

Insanity, you live by insanity, insanity

02-07-2012

I Am Perfect Death

I am perfect
For unwanted things
Underneath dying corpses
I am perfect
For everyone
But sometimes I feel cold
Inside a world
Drawing pure sadness
Cigarettes burn to the air
Hands are filled with water
Spit naughtiness from your breath
Ejaculate unused thoughts
Restrain a life of blankness
Selective and painful blankness.

I am death
I am loneliness without an arm
Foul without art
I exist in no heart
Leader without the sea
Psychotic men don't see
Fear on a rainy night, don't treat.

01-07-2012

Memories Are Only Mad

I remember when we're all talking to each other
Back in those days we'd spend the nights better
There was a campfire, I was all lonely in the dark
Then you came along and in the beginning
I just thought, won't she come someday with me to the park?

And memories are bad
Memories are good when they ain't sad
Memories, memories are only mad

The love she shows, oh sometimes
Sometimes it hurts the way she rhymes
But deep inside I know how she feels
She never wears strange high heels
I call her baby, but she's so confused
I'm not wrong and she's emotionally bruised

And memories are bad
Memories are good when they ain't sad
Memories, memories are only mad

You seem so little in your corner
Come out, I don't wanna be a mourner
When some darkness comes into play
It's not a game anymore, it's your own same way
I need to find your happiness to buy you a key
You can unlock it anytime you want
But don't let this image here to haunt

Memories are bad
Memories are good when they ain't sad
Memories, memories are only mad

And I am just an ordinary lad
I hope I can be your children's dad
One day

02-07-2012